Wednesday, July 1, 2015

What Math Has Taught Me About Insecurity

     I am currently taking a math course, which is something I most always loathe (yes, I am the stereotypical English major). However, this is progress because, as of thirty minutes ago, I've evolved from always loathing math to most always loathing math. My reasoning for this hatred is far too long and excessive for one blog post, but I'll sum it up to one reason - I hate that it teaches people that there can only be one answer to a problem. It doesn't transfer to the real world accurately at all. For example, if I am going through a really hard 'problem' in my life - let's say debt - I don't want one answer haunting my every move - bankruptcy. It's false and it's debilitating.
    However, as of thirty minutes ago, math has taught me something that is truly life-changing - there is always an answer. While mulling over this, I applied it to a difficult 'problem' I've been facing recently - insecurity. I realized what has kept me from solving it is that I haven't defined my problem yet. As math teaches, you must have an equation before you can solve for the variable.
     So I came up with an equation - 'insecurity, (n.)- the product of one's refusal to accept their flaws multiplied by their disregard to recognize their talents, assets, and/or abilities'
     Many people say insecurity is the opposite of loving yourself. I disagree. Kinda. You have to cancel out both issues in the equation to solve for the variable - insecurity. Not only must we recognize our 'talents, assets, and/or abilities,' but we must also accept our flaws. Conquering only one part either leaves us with fake feelings of mediocrity or perfection, which both end in a downfall. Why is this? Because they are both wrong answers. Yes, insecurity is helped by loving ourselves; but it's cured by accepting our flaws as well.
     Thirty minutes ago, I never thought math would give me an answer to real-life problems, especially my own. However, if there's one thing math teaches us, it is this: for every problem, there is always a solution.

"The essence of mathematics is not to make simple things complicated, but to make complicated things simple.  ~S. Gudder"